I just proved that wrong. Now, the world seems to cave in, like a monster swallowing me whole-heartedly, merciless. While I wait there, struggling, energy seeping out of my every movement, before being helpless as it dawns before me that, no matter how hard I try, fate has chained and restrained me back.

So, what's the point of hard work, when you do not get what you deserve? There would certainly be alot of people out there talking about their successful admissions, etc.

Why? Imagine you have put your heart and soul, worked your socks off, and still...

This is what I get.

So, if I did not work as hard as before, I would've probably gotten the same scores. If hard work does not bring what I deserve, then there's nothing else than can do so.

How long must I wait? When can there finally be success.

My whole life's a failure.